It
was the backdrop of my middle school, I was 13. I had two prodigious best
friends. They always helped each other, whenever someone alighted, they gave a
shoulder to lean on. Everything was so blissful. I was blessed to give them the
title of Best Friends.
It
was the wintertime, and winter means school annual functions and
participations. I got selected for comparing. And the 2nd level of that
was held on a no schooling day. My Best friend , he was also selected for the 2nd
level. I was frenzied to reach the school and give the auditions. Though, I
ain’t got selected, I was a little daze as I was prepared well. I was wandering
on the hallways. Then unexpectedly while roaming, I met a good friend of mine. Her
name was Tiksha. She was garrulous like me. We both talked for long. At that
time, she introduced me with her best friend. Her name was Vaishree, we both
belong to the same caste.
She was my BFF’s girlfriend, a long time ago he told
me that he’s going to propose a girl, at the first time I believed him, but it
was just a prank that he kept for so long. When I came to know the truth that
his girlfriend was phoney, I decided not to trust him in these topics. So, when
he said that he had a girlfriend, I didn’t believe him this time. But in
reality this was the truth that I disbelieved. I greeted Vaishree with a smile
and said “Hello!” she also replied “Hi!” with a cute smile on
her face. First time they both seemed too wonderful. There was something
special in their personality. “I should maintain a good relation with them, as they
are his friends”,
I thought. So, wherever they moved, I went after them. It was kinda awkward,
however it was an unforgettable day. The day was quite joyful. But I felt
something wrong was going on with the partners. While he was out for a walk
with Pankhudi. The tears flowed down her face, she cried hopelessly. I was
perplexed. I didn’t know what was going on and what was the matter. I asked
several time to all of them, even I approached Sameer, eventually not a single
person told me anything. Hah! Though the day was joyful, I thought, “It would be a tiny
tussle, it can’t last for ages, everything’ll be normal, I should not intrude
in between”.
After
a week later, gradually both the best friends started coming to our block
classes in recess time. And somewhere little bit I knew; they were here to see
a glance of him. Suddenly a schoolgirl came out of her class, she was my bus
mate Kaamini. Being extremely delighted, Vaishree embraced her tightly. I was
standing there with strange emotion on my face. This was just the beginning of the
series chain of the tragic drama.
Weeks
passed by, they came everyday, just to see a glance him. Now this was a little
peevish. I went to my classmate Sameer and asked “ What’s going on, Why
they are coming everyday to our Block? Is everything fine with them?”, asked being addled. I
provoked him to say after some time he spoke all the truth. He said “she a is suspicious
person, She is crazy for him; she has a strong determination to achieve
something and could do anything to achieve that, but she’s forgetting that he’s
not a thing. She had a problem with every girl with he just talked, she can
always start crying for the sake of sympathy. On a one fine day, she hewed her
hand.” …"Oh My God! Why did she
do this?”
I asked in amazement. “Just
because he don’t give much attention to her” he said.
He spoke many unavowed history. I came
to a conclusion after listening the history, that she had fumbled, many things
she had done wrong. So, as being a nice friend, I walked to her. I calmed down
myself, and spoke “I’m
really sorry to say this, but you’ve done wrong dear. You should give him
space. It’s not right to doubt him when he talks to another girl. He’s loyal,
and if you truly loved him, you should have never done this. And what’s the meaning
of hurting yourself? Hurting yourself is not the solution to any problem. And I think Vipasha is guiding you in a wrong
way, you mustn’t talk to her.” Like that it gone a long conversation. I saw
aggressiveness in her eyes. But damn! She was too good in hiding that. From
that day, she felt like I’m a devil for her. I said that just because I cared
for her, I didn’t had a wrong intention, I was frantic to watch her crying
everyday, I was frantic to again hear that she hewed her hand. I think she
didn’t know that, if a single nerve is being misplaced ; it can cause her to death.
I just some showed humanity, nothing else but they all got it wrong. Then I
talked to Tiksha about it, she said “Yeah! You’re right; it’s all her fault. But
anyways why you said about Kaamini like that?”, “ She is guiding her in a wrong
path, and I don’t want her to be wrong, she need to correct herself, it’s
normal everyone thinks they’re right when they’re wrong but all they need is to
have someone who corrects them.” I said. She said “Alright I’ll talk to
her, and boost her with positive energy, you don’t worry.” I smiled. And within
a fraction of seconds I thought initiatively and said “I’m gonna tell you a
thing, which I’ve not disclosed to anyone. I’m trusting you enough to tell you
that, but promise me, you will not tattle.”. She said “Yeah! Pinkie promise”
I
told her that Kaamini likes Karan Tripathi. I’ve read that in a confession,
she’s envy of his girlfriend. I don’t know what’s the truth since I saw in the
confession so I confessed that. I happily walked away in a joy of guiding them
in right path. But few days later when I reached the school, Vipasha asked me when
I stepped in the bus “Hey!
You’re Aditi? Right?” I said..”Yeah! Any doubt?” then she said while glaring “Who the hell gave
you the right to talk about me?” I asked..what’s the matter, why you’re
shouting?.
She said in a withering way “what?? Now don’t say that,You don’t know what you’ve
done. Don’t act innocent. Vaishree and Tiksha told me that you said awful
about me, and reveal that I like KT and I’m jealous of his girlfriend. Awesome!
Now the whole class knows this creepy news. Thank you so much for insulting me.
Meet me in recess I wanna talk” I was like..”whooaa! I just told that to Tiksha. How
could she tell the whole class? …Now it was clear that they were my frenemies.
I decided to segregate. They hurt my feeling. The way in which Kaamini talks is
just grotty. I was not soothed and things gone awry. Some time later, the
recess bell rang. They came to my class. My fingers were crossed, hoping,
whatever happens it’ll be good for me. I took a long breath and I walked out on
the hallways with them. Sameer was supporting me but then, Vaishree cursed
him and I had no choice but to send him back. The brawl started. It was my
first fight; I never thought that I’d see this day soon. She said lots of
disgusting things, and now it was taking over me. It couldn’t bare it anymore,
and I spoke without being insane, rough and loud. In vexation I also said some
unpleasant things. The bell rang again, the recess was over, and she went back
to her class. But my words were still unsaid, I’ve to prove that I was not
wrong I didn’t grudge the news to anyone, so I also went to her class and then it
again started a five-minute grapple. Pranjal came and stopped me, he said “let’s to the
class..come on!”
in a cool tone. Duuh!
It
was the toughest part of my life till now. This event was full of
misunderstanding, lying, breaking trust and most of all EGO! I rambled to the
class, slowly-slowly I became pale, eyes were watering, hand and legs were freezed,
the mind stopped working, most of all I was breaking apart. When I reached
home, I locked myself and cried till my eyes were red, dark red. Hah! Every
time when I trust somebody they show me why not to trust anyone. I was
disgusted with my self; this ordeal was breaking me into pieces. It continued a
week or more. Then one day, I decided to be strong and a verbal stream of voice
came in my mind that said by reminding me who I am. “Aditi! Don’t give
up. I know you’re hurt but be strong. Everyone’s gonna hate you, break you,
rate and shake you. But how hard you are is gonna stay is what makes you.” I remembered a great quote,
which gave me strength to move on: “You can be the ripest and juiciest peach in
the world. But there’s still gonna be someone who hate peaches.”
Barely I filled my
mind with positive energy. Yeah! No doubt I was broken but I picked up every
piece , joined it altogether, and came being even stronger than before. With
this incidence I learned how to control my emotions. It’s truly said,
everything happens for a reason, you just gotta find it. And that day I decided,
I’ll never ever involve in anything. Instead of doing well of others I’ll do
good of my family. At last they are the reason why I am and who I am. Sometimes
you’ve to break down to know your worth, how strong you’re and how strong you
could be. What hurts you today, makes you stronger tomorrow! Life is all about balancing between forgetting something
enough so that you can get over it & remembering it so that it won't happen
again.
This
was the progress that I made and it was a great lesson of my life, which
encouraged me to be the best of myself. Well…the Best is yet to come.
-Aditi. 5th March 2014
